So...who ARE these people??

Isn't it amazing, these people who don't give you the time of day and snub their nose at you for years, suddenly are your best friend and want all the juicy details about your impending divorce? I just have to laugh. Do they really think that I think they give a rat's ass about me? It's amazing when tongues wag, how many people suddenly remember my phone number.

However, I did get my first "congratulations" today. LOL. Of course, it was from another woman who was spurned by a husband and had been divorced for 9 years. She, however, has no desire to date. She told me she doesn't want another child to care for. Sorry....that ain't me. I relishing going out on a date again. I don't think it will happen anytime soon, but I'm definitely ready for it to start, though a bit scared at the same time too, ok more like...a bit petrified at the same time too, lol. To quote from Angels & Airwaves, lol, I think this sums up what I'm hoping for in the dating world: "And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly....Just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight, Prepare for the best and the fastest ride." I so need a good time...if you know what I mean. ;)

And speaking of AVA, does anybody else think they are trying for U2'ness? I just get that feeling whenever I hear the long intros to their songs.

Oh, and guess what I did? I finally got my nerve up and made some postcards and mailed them to Post Secret yesterday. I had to just do it and mail them right away, otherwise I would have changed my mind. Now I have this paranoid feeling of the postal workers reading my secrets. I bet they love that stuff, lol. I'm crossing my fingers one might make the cut. I have a feeling if I see it up there, my stomach will drop out of my body, lol. And I'm still not sure I'll post to my blog and say "hey my secret's up there, can you guess which one," lol.

Well....I'm back

And I have some news. I had a birthday, now I'm the big 32, woo to the freakin hoo. Can you see my enthusiam? Yeah, I thought so.

So my news? Well...from my cryptic speak from a few other posts, this might make sense now. I'm getting a divorce. It's actually for the best. We're both happy with the decision. It's been bad for a long time....for years. I can't even remember why I married him and frankly, I don't want to remember. And apparently this decision has been coming to a head within me for a long while, and now that's it's finally out, I feel free. In fact, people I talk to on the phone can hear the happiness in me now.

So it's good, I'm ok, and I'm happy. I'm going back to school next semeseter, finish my nursing degree and can start life over. I'm excited about the challenge.

The KVM switch for my computers crapped out again (yeah this is like the 3rd one that's crapped out, don't ask me what I do to those things). I have 2 computers hooked to 1 monitor - one for my work and one for my fun, lol. Anyway, so as soon as I get all the wires hooked back up with the new switch again, I'll post pictures of the Disneyland vacation.

And oh, I discovered my next indie music love, Matt Duke. I love, love his music. One of my faves is Sex and Reruns, it makes me dance, lol. He has a great voice and love his lyrics. His album just recently dropped, and I picked it up on iTunes as a birthday present to myself, lol. Here is a song of his that speaks to my heart, Rabbit:

Fly

Something is wrong with me. I don't know what it is. Do you ever feel like you're on the edge of something and about to be be pushed off and you don't know if you'll either fly or fall miserably to the ground with a huge thud? I'm so ready to jump off right now that I am being absolutely miserable to everyone around me, and I can't make myself stop it. I need to jump off soon, or everyone is going to hate me. I have turned into such a b*tch for the past couple of weeks. I don't want to go on this trip to disneyland, I want a vacation alone, completely alone ,and I think that's adding to my misery. Somebody knock me out of my selfishness. Or I need to figure out how to fake it.

Adios amigos

I'm leaving in a couple of days for Disneyland, and I have procrastinated so much this time. No laundry is done, my house is a mess, and do I care? Not one damn bit...lol. I've had other things...on my mind.

I have a bigger problem, apparently, my children are vampires. They stay up all night long and it's gonna be a major pain in my rear when I have to drag them around Disneyland before noon. I cannot get these people to bed. They just won't stay there. In fact, they are literally bouncing off the walls as I type. Is this why they used to break out the whiskey in baby bottles? Of course, they also want to sleep with mommy. How is it I can have a king size bed, and still I have about 2 inches of space to lay down? I have the fun of wedging myself between 2 children and a sprawled 100+ pound labrador. Oh joy!

I'm hoping our trip will fix their circadium rhythms. I am craving a few hours alone at night to myself. I can't tell you the last time I could watch grown up TV, it's been collecting on my DVR for weeks. And dammit, I do not want to watch another episode of Grossology. Have you seen this? They have a character that collects his boogers into a giant ball, and another one that has a giant zit for a head, and then there is the episode where EVERYONE is throwing up all over the place. My kids love this show, I want to dry heave every time I see it. Somebody come put my kids to bed for me, I need to go watch some crap on televison.

Junkie

It's early morning, I just finished working all night and thought what better than to go ramble on my blog about nothing. So here I am...rambling...

I've become an exercise junkie. I have this love/hate relationship with it. I tend to either not exercise or become obsessed. For awhile now, I've been obsessed, twice a day - at least. I find myself looking over at the elliptical machine at other times of the day and have to force myself to stay away. I forget about that high you get, lol, there is nothing like it. And I can't let myself quit running until sweat is literally pouring off of me, it's amazing how the 3 minute marker is the killer for me, once I get past 3 minutes, I get this burst of energy and feel like I can run forever. I'm almost up to an hour a day.

On a positive note, I think I have to buy new shoes and a new bra, apparently the exercise is shrinking boobs and feet. I didn't realize feet would shrink, but all my shoes are now too big.

So onto the music. I have discovered the faster, the louder, the better the songs are for running, so I have a playlist on my iPod specifically for running and I turn the sound up as high as I can, lol:

I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy
Move Along - All American Rejects - this one is a really good motivator.
Say You Love Me - Velvet Code
When Did Your Heart Go Missing - Rooney
Extraorindary - Liz Phair
Thnks fr th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy
Dirty Little Secret - All American Rejects

And on a totally different note, I can't even describe this other thing, I've just gotten myself into something and I want to run screaming away, but I don't think it's possible yet. I just need to make a rule to not be nice to strangers. And if you are still reading my blog and you see this, it is definitely not you, it's something I haven't even told you, but I'll give you the story soon enough, lol. So don't worry and you'll die laughing.

Velvet Code!!!

So apparently today is music day. I recently discovered this awesome band, Velvet Code, after they were featured on Perez Hilton

They are very retro 80s/90s "new wave," very much like The Cure and maybe Depeche Mode combined? I love their stuff. My favorite is the song, More, on their myspace player.

I can't wait for their new album to drop on iTunes, I am so getting it, lol.

So they want the world to know their music, so here is a free download of their awesome song, Say You Love Me. Just click the song title.

And here is a video of them performing it.

It's good...

I think House is back this week? I just love Hugh Laurie....plus I have thing for Kal Penn.

So back to my venting b*tchfest a few days, things have been resolved on all sides. My software is not as big of a pain in the ass as I thought it was. (Ok...yes it still is a pain in the ass and I hate that crap, but I can live with it...I think). And my dead rotting friend? isn't missing anymore and now I completely understand why they were missing...in fact, it breaks my heart....but we had a lovely chat, and I hope it helped. Sigh, why does the world have to screw with people who are just trying to do the right thing???

Anyway, I have so much stuff to finish up this week before I leave for Disney. I'll have some new ATCs up in a few days, I have a TON to make for a swap. Ms Em has a festival to dance at this weekend. This year's dance theme is the new movie, Mamma Mia. I think my favorite is "Does Your Mother Know?" And then her absolute favorite is her jazz dance, it's to Footlose. No one in the class has seen the movie, lol. God, I feel old....

So I have another love...sorry guys, I just love you singer songwriter guys too much. It's Joshua Radin. He has such soulful music, it can say exactly what you feel. He has such an amazing whispering voice. My current favorite is One of Those Days. It's about seeing his ex girlfriend's face everywhere and he wants to hide away from the world. When I'm having a bad day, it makes me feel better to hear this song. The rhythm of it just lulls me out of my funk. Anyway, check him out on iTunes, he's got some amazing stuff - Sky, Lovely Tonight, The Fear You Won't Fall.

And...one more

Have you heard the Plain White T's new song? It's called 1,2,3,4. So adorable, sappy sweet, but I instantly loved it. It reminds me of that song from Juno, Anyone Else But You. It gives me the same vibe.

Oh my goodness!

I have discovered my new love...move over Jason Mraz, lol....enter Matt Nathanson. I love, love, love this song, and to watch him sing it, it makes your heart leap. He loves it. It must be wonderful to do something you love that much.

The Perfect Quote

Ok so yes exercising and listening to my iPod did some wonder to my attitude. I'm in a much better mood, lol. I don't want to kill the computer anymore....don't kill the messenger kinda thing, I guess, lol.

So anyway, I forgot to post this earlier....I saw the best quote I think I've ever seen a few days ago from Frank the guy who runs Postsecret.

Anyway, the quote was:

"have the strength to be vulnerable."

I have decided this quote will be my mantra. I think I'm going to make that into some art collage or something and hang it on a wall so I can see it every day. I think it's perfect. It is so true. I find it so hard to be vulnerable, don't you? You want to protect yourself always, and it really is hard to let go of that shell.

So...that's my waxing for the day. I'm headed to the shower to drench my sweaty self in cold water.

Idiots, they're all Idiots!!!!

So?? who's ready for b*tchfest 2008? I know it's been a long year since 2007, and we all just couldn't wait for the next year, so instead of doing it on my sucky birthday, let's do it today on my nightmare from hell.

So...let's start off with my job. Oh yeah, this so much fun. They have completely changed the software platform for my work. I do medical transcription and I have had the same platform since I began working there years ago. Well this week they up and change it to something completely different. And....without training me, they let the doctors go ahead and dictate into it today. WTF?? Seriously, I just got my download of the software 5 minutes ago. I don't know how to use it, I have barely figured out how to log on, so I can't do their reports. How in the hell am I supposed to type anything into it? I hope to god they don't die tomorrow when no completed reports show up. And to make it even more hilarity, there are only so many licenses for this software to go around the company, so if there is a maximum number of people logged on, well too bad, so sad for you, you don't get to do your job. Who thought of that brilliant plan?

And then I have a very personal problem that I can't really air here. I would love to, but people I know actually read this, and I'm sure as hell not explaining it to them...strangers are fine, friends and family need to be left in the dark -- it's better that way. But let's just say, it's really really pissing me off. And confidential to the person I'm speaking of -- I don't like to be ignored, and I'm pretty sure I'm being ignored....that or you had better be dead, like seriously dead and rotting in the ground.

Ok so...that's it for now. If I think of more things to b*tch about, I'll let you know. Now I'm headed to the elliptical machine to do some major sweating so I can mellow myself before the desire to rip the freaking computer apart with my bare hands becomes overwhelming.

Disneyland

So in 2 weeks I am leaving for Disneyland. I have this obsession with it. I love Disneyland. Disneyworld? Eh, not so much. Call me lazy, I like being able to walk directly from Disneyland to California Adventure and back again instead of waiting on a stupid bus. And I'll take SoCal weather any day over Florida humidity.

So I'm taking my mother-in-law, I just finished printing out her park tickets. She is such a great lady. She's my partner in crime. She lives in Oklahoma where there are TONS of Indian casinos, and there is one in her town. So she and I will sneak out of the house around midnight and go up to the casino, when the kids are asleep. We take $20 and usually come home with about $100, and we laugh our asses off. She lives in a very small town, so at least half the people in the casino know her when we get there, lol. I have come to the conclusion that the other half live at the casion and have never met a shower. One night on the way home from the casino, I told her how I wanted my pink hair, and my MIL (who is in her 60s) confessed she really wants to smoke a marijuana cigarette. I think both of us laughed til we cried about that. Uh....how the heck did this go from Disneyland to marijuana?

More Paper Dresses

So this is for a swap over at swap-bot for paper dresses. We had to make 2 for our swapper. I'm going to try to wrap some mini metal wires and attach them, but I'm not sure if I can get it to work.

Re-Pinked!

So I just got my hair colored again with my ever popular Atomic Pink. It's looking cute, so I actually remembered to take a picture of it. My hairstylist now works out of her very small town. We went out to dinner tonight there in a tiny local restaurant where I stuck out like a sore thumb. I think the entire restaurant turned around when I walked in with my flaming hair. Usually I don't feel self conscious at all about my hair, I love it, but at that moment, I sure did. Then some crazy-eyed guy actually just sat there and stared me down through the entire meal, it was kinda creepy.

I Don't Care

Have you heard Fall Out Boy's newest single, I Don't Care? I really like it, I already know the words I'm so addicted. I need them to put it up on iTunes soon. It makes me want to dance around the room, and I have been, great workout, lol. Yep, I'm a 31-year-old mother of 2, who's addicted to Fall Out Boy, sad, lol.

I found a good version on YouTube. Make sure you turn it all the way up, it sounds better the louder it is, lol.



I haven't been updating as I should, I've been having a little too much fun lately, lol. I'll try to put up some new "crafty" stuff up in a couple days. I have a project I'm working on that I'll show then.

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Cake Wrecks

I have to share the funniest blog I've come across in a long time. I've been sitting here laughing hysterically while my children think I'm nuts. It's called Cake Wrecks. And these cakes are made by professionals, people.

Okay now for your first taste of it (yes that was my lame attempt at a pun), go to this particular cake. There are no words I can say to describe it. And you absolutely must read the post that goes with it. I laughed until I cried.