Sunday, September 21, 2008
Something is wrong with me. I don't know what it is. Do you ever feel like you're on the edge of something and about to be be pushed off and you don't know if you'll either fly or fall miserably to the ground with a huge thud? I'm so ready to jump off right now that I am being absolutely miserable to everyone around me, and I can't make myself stop it. I need to jump off soon, or everyone is going to hate me. I have turned into such a b*tch for the past couple of weeks. I don't want to go on this trip to disneyland, I want a vacation alone, completely alone ,and I think that's adding to my misery. Somebody knock me out of my selfishness. Or I need to figure out how to fake it.
at 4:52 PM